I've moved. Again. Go here for now.

She clings to me like cellophane Fake plastic submarine Slowly driving me insane But now that's over So what if the sex was great Just a temporary escape Another thing I grew to hate But now that's over Why you always kick me when I'm high Knock me down till we see eye to eye Figured her out I know she May not be Miss Right but she'll do right now I used to hang on every word Each lie was more absurd Kept me so insecure But now that's over She taught me how to trust And to believe in us And then she taught me how to cuss ... that b****! It's over I used to be such a nice boy SR71 - Right Now

Email from Andrew Edem, the admin of my email server following a week of downtime:

"Well, since the implosion of @Home, and the takeover of AT&T, the server formally known as gate.kaxis.cs, residing in my garage, has been moved to a secure location in Redwood City. Because of my continuing policy to protect national security, this location will remain undisclosed until such time as I feel like disclosing it. Since the move, the server is now known as poe.illuvator.net. All web sites should be working now, and all mail is currently making its way back onto the server. I realize how inconvenient this outage has been for some of you, but in times of national crisis, we must be ready to surrender liberties and freedoms in order to fight terrorism. And, as I'm too lazy to give you specific notice, I request that everyone remain on "high alert" for possible system down time as I make upgrades over the next weeks and months. Remember, we must remain virulent, and steadfast, in truth, and freedom, of our natural fluids."

I just went to the football game, our team, Lafayette High School played "The Eagles of Liberty" and beat them 3-0. We're going to states. I'm going to go watch states too, it'll be fun. The states game is at the college in Liberty. Sucks to live in Liberty I bet. We won with a field goal in the second quarter (I think). Liberty had some incredible throws that should have been caught and run in for them to beat us, but they didn't.

"This is your life, and it's ending one minute at a time."

I'm done with my first week of Driver's Ed now, it wasn't bad. The first day was a lot worse than the 2-4th days. I have it Monday-Thursday from 6-8pm. I was gonna go to the volleyball game last night, but Amie and I went shopping instead. It was cool, except she's a compulsive buyer. So am I, so it all works out well. I just see her as more compulsive because the things she "has to have" aren't the same as the things that I "have to have". We almost got a snakeskin steeringwheel cover, but then I told her it was a bit too much, same as the big fuzzy pink steeringwheel cover she wanted. Steeringwheel covers are all a bit weird, I've never used one though. Then we harrassed tourists in CW, because we're locals, and they aren't. I slept only 8 hours last night, but it feels so great because it's about 2 hours more than I normally sleep. It's sort of wierd, I need to start getting more sleep before I either get addicted to caffine or collapse from exhaustion. I'm never all that tired, but sometimes I get to be really really out of it.

Well the cables aren't dark yet, but I depend on Cox@home for my internet access, so I hope they never go dark. I haven't actually found any news on wether or not @home plans to cut off the access, or if the cable companies have come to some agreement or whatever's going on, so I'm a bit uncomfortable right now.

Started drivers ed today, finally. Hopefully it'll get more interesting when I start to sleep properly again. I haven't slept in a while, and I still have about an hour and a half of homework to do tonight. Plus chemistry, oh and I have to study for that calculus test. Damn.

As if there wasn't enough to spoil my day, I've been preparing myself to work on a paper which I assumed to be due tommorow. It turns out the paper is due on the 29th, which is the coming thursday, but that I have another... 5 hours of work due tommorow. So I'm gonna go do that work now, and yes, I hate school. I don't necessarily hate my teachers, because they teach me stuff, but I hate school in general. I want to be a plumber, or something. I know, that they teach us all of this stuff because it will give us a few grounding rules that we'll remember later in life. Why can't they just drill those grounding rules into us now? The most annoying thing, is that once I do all this work, I have to sign a thing saying I didn't cheat. That's f**cking insulting to me.

Andrew and I finished a new website! Check it out, and buy yourself some shoes, because everyone needs a new pair of shoes sometimes.

Checking out some cool software called Jericho that lets me post to my blogger account from a little Java window. I think I officially have more blogs about blogging than I do actual blogs. Weird.

"For three years, I've been addicted to cold turkey." -Zach Galifianakis [EvHead]

Good Morning.

Picture blog! A quality Jeremy Justice production. Here's one from Layne.

Thanksgiving... My sister Jessica's airplane should arrive soon, then she'll get home, and we'll eat dinner. Good stuff. I'm gonna go running though first, so then I can eat more than other people and say "hey, i went running today, what did you do today?". It'll be greeeat fun.

Went wandering around town with my brother (Brishen) and sister (Merin). We're watching southpark now, and I'm downloading Gorillaz music.

"Think for yourself Question authority Throughout human history, as our species has faced the frightening, terrorizing fact that we do not know who we are, or where we are going in this ocean of chaos, it has been the authorities, the political, the religious, the educational authorities who attempted to comfort us by giving us order, rules, regulations, informing, forming in our minds their view of reality. To think for yourself you must question authority and learn how to put yourself in a state of vulnerable, open-mindedness; chaotic, confused, vulnerability to inform yourself. Think for yourself. Question authority." - Timothy Leary

I got my new system, well my new motherboard and processor. I now have a 1.4ghz athlon with 512mb of ram, 15 gig harddrive, and an Nvidia TNT2 video card. I can somewhat feel cool about my computer for a while. Just a while though.

Apple has their new AirPort base stations out. I'm excited about them. I want one. It'll cost like 400 dollars to outfit myself with one, but I could also then sell my firewall computer. I probably won't sell it, but I could. I could also go anywhere I want in the house with my iBook... temptin stuff. Next time I have 400 dollars to burn I'll get one. Or next time I need a good tax deduction for buiness purposes.

Working on a new medium to replace instant-messaging, email, and browsing, to merge them all into a single medium. It'd basically break compatability with loads of things, but also open up lots of possibilities. I think this is a good time to sail forward and never look back.

I just got back from the William and Mary High School Model United Nations Conference... (WMHSMUN, it's pronounced "wa-mz-mun"). I was Kuwait in an ad-hoc committee on terrorism. We talked about terrorism specifically in Afghanistan and then later about state-sponsored terrorism. We never made it to the third topic which was cyber-terrorism. Personally I would have liked to see the third topic be talked about, and there was a motion to set that as the topic, but our chair ignored the proper parlimentary procedure and decided we needed a 2/3rds vote instead of a majority vote to change the topic, and we didn't get that. I'm about to start working on my homework, which I have rather a lot of. I wish I had gotten to work on it earlier but I haven't had any free time. I need to go running too, I haven't gotten in nearly the distance this weekend that I was supposed to, and I want to keep getting faster so distance and speed are important.

sleep...

Ok, so I've ordered a new computer, or at least a new motherboard and processor, along with a PCI ethernet card. I suppose this is a good thing, since I have a bunch of computer-ness sitting around wasting right next to me as I use my slightly underpowered laptop. I got a 1.4ghz AMD Athlon XP 1600, with an Asus motherboard (forgive me if I don't know the model number) and 256mb of ram. This will bring me to 512mb of ram, but I think I'll sell 128 of that to Layne since he has a mere 128 for himself right now. I've been running about 6 miles a day, and I feel great. We're very close to shipping the site for both Joes Garb Shoes and Design Master Associates. Those are both the new, beta version of their websites. Be forwarned. School is going well, and I should go do my homework before someone beats me up over it . . . Man I'm tired too.

We had this dance at the conference, and they were playing sorta bad music because it was rock and the kids can't dance to rock. So Ben Hindman was struggling to find something cool to play, I plugged in my laptop and played some Bjork for a while, which was ok because it was fast technoish stuff which is very easy to dance to, but these girls kept saying "this is wack yo, we can't dance to this" but then they never said what they wanted us to play. It was weird.

I got this letter today in a clear bag, from George Washington University. At first I thought "oh, they're trying to look cool" and then I thought "oh, it's one of those static-free bags that they put computer parts in, maybe they're a tech school" then I realized it was all about Anthrax. Everything these days is about Anthrax. I realize now that if I recieved any mail at all, I might have reason to be scared, but I don't, so I just sorta laugh, even if that's sick.

Woke up at like 12 today, the fan was blowing in my room, the one that's on the ceiling. It always gets really cold in my room when the fan blows, so at about 11am I woke up and thought "Wow, I should turn that fan off", then at noon I woke up again, and went and turned it off. After that I just sat around and did some reading, homework reading. There is lots of crappy homework for me to waste my time working on, and I'm not really happy about that. I read "The fall of the house of Usher" by Poe today, which is a good short story, and now I have to look up various words that are in it for English. Oh, and I have it setup now so that I use "BlogScript" in MacOSX to paste up my messages. I type something in, copy it to the clipboard (edit->copy) and then I select "BlogScript" from my menu, and there it goes up on the website. Neato.

Awake. Get the crap out of my eyes. Wash my face, drink water, listen again to The Strokes. Took a while to get muscle control, maybe I was just tired but I had an interesting expirience hobbling down the stairs, I think I have muscles back now. Mom is making Longaberger shirts to try to give out to ladies who host her Longaberger basket parties. Mom has an embordiery machine. Basket parties freak me out for some unknown reason, women clustered in corners buying baskets at exorbitantly high prices gives me the shivvers. So as it turns out white string embrodiery on white fabric is a bit too subtle, and Scott (stepdad) and I couldn't really see it all that well. Oh well. There aren't going to be many women coming to the Longaberger party that's here today, everyone is going out of town, which is just weird because they all seemed to have honest excuses. She is having another party next week that is getting about 50 guests though. There is some theory that you get more women to spend more money on baskets in trailorparks than in gated communities. I really wasn't paying attention to all the theorizing.

Oh! The Strokes are pretty cool too.

So there turned out to be nothing of interest happening tonight. Well, I did end up watching Bridget Jones Diary with my mom and stepdad. It gets a bit weird when they're talking about sex and you have to sit there and pretend to not be interested. I mean, you aren't all that interested, as if you don't know what the people are talking about, but you want to pretend you're slightly between paying attention and not paying attention, so you don't look entirely not intrested in reproduction (because mom will eventually want kids) but not interested in doing it right now. Anyways, i started typing this blog a while ago but never got around to posting it. I've just now watched Bridget Jones Diary again, at least the first 30 minutes, while working on some stuff for andrew. Then I watched HBO, and caught the last 5 minutes of Band of Brothers, which is an incredible thing, I hope to see it in it's entirety some day. Now I'm gonna go sleep.

It looks like no one is doing anything tonight. Bummer. I think I'm gonna watch some movies, which will be fun at least for a while. Everyone else is at the Lifehouse concert, which should be starting in about an hour and 20 minutes. That means they're probably eating dinner right now. I'll let them get some fresh air, and I can watch movies. I have American Psycho, The Beach, and The Hurricane.

Got new running shoes.... it's about time. They're asics, and my feet are smaller than they were before, or something. The lady put me in 10 1/2's. Oh well.

I decided during some stint of idocity last night that I should train to run a marathon. Now if you're thinking "dumbass" that's right. I need to run about 10 miles today, which will be... interesting. Anyways, I still haven't found any specific marathon that is far enough off for me to train for it, but I will, I'm sure.

Sigh... Homework and it's Holloween. Sigh...

We were on Challenge 23 tonight, or at least we taped our Episode. I don't remember the name of the school we went up against, but we very narrowly beat them, so that's good. I'm gonna go do homework.

Awake. Actually I've been awake for a 1/2 hour but you know you should always just say "I'm awake" and not tell them exactly how long you've been in such a state. That way they don't know you slept in late. Which makes me wonder, exactly what time IS It right now? All my clocks are at different times, and it doesn't help that the clock on our microwave just shows an arbitrarily random time depending on how long it's been running. It gradually grows, but doesn't grown according do the system, the time just goes forward a little faster than normal continually. I don't have a lot of homework, but I DO have a lot of work to do, and the server isn't being nice to me. Maybe I'll go for a run, after I get the code working. Thankfully none of it is 'bugs', it's all just little problems with some code. It's a good thing.

Back from the dance, it was pretty good except they played too much bad techno (and no good techno). There were also weird techno-ish remixes of country songs (where did you come from where did you go?). Dinner was good though, and the dance was fun, so I'm not complaining. The music wasn't too bad. There were a lot of girls that didn't have any dates, and I should have danced with them, but oh well. After the dance we went to Megan Perry's house and played Skunk I think I broke every rule imaginable, but next time I play I'll be better at it.

Thriller is awesome, it was on TV late last night and now my stepdad is watching something about it. It reaffirmed my somewhat not being scaredness for Michael Jackson.

Got the flowers, ran 5 miles or so, got all dressed and now I'm sitting around waiting until it's time to go over to Abby's house. We're all meeting up there to take pictures that our moms can hold onto and then embarass us with in 10 years. It's a pretty standard ritual that I'll just have to get used to one of these days. blogBuddy continues to kick ass. I'm going to have to get buffalo out the door soon, since I spent so much time working on it. Then we can see how truly incredible blogBuddy can be come. Yay.

The big homecoming dance is tonight. I'm going with Katie Fitzgerald. She has green eyes, as we decided after a weird conversation last night. I kept threatening to take the lunch lady because, well, she gives me french fries, but I decided Katie is a better choice. I need to go get a hair cut and figure out what I'm doing about flowwerrs. Have fun without me.

Just got back from the meeting... I got my shoes... Oh, and the world gets ever more confusing, but I'll explain that sometime when life is easier and I can look back and laugh at things more.

Off to a meeting tonight with James and Andrew about designmasters.com's new revision. It will be an interesting meeting, and as Andrew pointed out, the opportunity for me to do something stupid is much lower when I'm not in a crowd of people, like at the peprally. I don't feel like doing anything stupid right now.

I'm not sure if I'm going to the Pep-Rally or to a meeting tonight. I want to be in two places at once, but I'm leaning towards... both ways at the same time. I think I'm going to the meeting though.

I'm having a sort of falling-out. I don't really think I want to continue on with the Buffalo project, this is of course very disheartening. My main reason is that I don't see a lot of reason in releasing code to do something that there already is. I have lots of practice in programming, so why the hell do i keep reinventing the wheel? I suppose an essential part of software is reinventing the wheel. I don't like it. I want to create new tools that no one has thought of yet. Then you realize that the only reason we keep reinventing the wheel is because old wheels don't work for new standards. We create a new langauge and then suddenly feel it necessary to write everything over again in that language. Or it has to be rewritten to be open source, or to use a specific toolkit. It's all bullshit but it also all makes sense. **Sigh**

I got a phone call at around 8:30 this morning from my father, he's going to be coming into town sometime in the middle of the afternoon. I haven't seen him in about 3 months so it'll be nice to be able to. I need to go running but I really have no desire to, I think I've entirely spent any urge I'd ever had to go running and Cross Country was the only reason I could keep it up. All sense tells me that I do need to take a week off, but I think if I take too long off of running I won't be able to get back in a groove of it. I've also started drinking soda again for the first time in about 8 months. It's weird. I need to stop drinking soda because it makes me sick but it's now easily accessable so I might as well. I think I'll go for an early-morning run around town sometime soon.

I ended up seeing "Riding in cars with Boys", it was pretty good. Except that Megan Weber started crying at stupid little things. Oh well.

I have no idea what I'm doing tonight. I think I might be going to see a movie, maybe I should call someone and find out...

Andrew is supposed to get me some templates to work on a new revision of Design Your Shoes sometime this weekend. Once I get those I can get to work on that. Right now I'm working on a little server which I hope will be fully compliant with the Blogger xml-rpc interface. I want to have my own blogger-esque server around for screwing with. If you don't know what I'm talking about: I'm basically trying to re-create something similar to what I am writing on here, except it would be open-source. Yay! No hard feelings at all to the blogger folks, I'm just bored and I figured why not?

My aunt, Peg Leonard, died on Thursday night. I didn't know her as well as I should have and I have opted out of going to her funeral. There is a chance someone might read this who is wondering why I'm not at the funeral, and it definatly has nothing to do with me not caring about Peg or wanting to see my family. My week has been entirely too busy for me to spend 8 hours up and 8 hours back from Massachusetts in a car. I don't think I could emotionally deal with it, and having a funeral too would be too much. There was some feeling deep inside me that made me really, really not want to go to the funeral. I don't know what it is right now, and I don't like the idea that I'm not going to be there, but it really didn't feel right. Hopefully it isn't a premonition of anything. I'm not superstitious but who knows. I will miss Peg, and I don't think it's even necessary for me to say that. It's given that I miss Peg, but I don't think attending a funeral would bring any more closure to my life than accepting her being gone in my own ways. I'm sorry if anyone is angry at me for not going up to Massachusetts this weekend, but it just didn't feel right. I love all of you and I hope you reach peace with yourself by attending her funeral.

I'm using blogger-bot to send this message, which is infinately cool. It (blogbot) is a buddy on my aim buddy list whom I send messages to and it posts those to my blogger account. Sorta sucks that I have to give it my password, but I'm really not all that paranoid so I don't care. Life doesn't suck again, and I don't ever have to login to the dumb pyra website again to post stuff, here comes a new life for my work!

I have 10.1 installed. It's everything I was hoping it'd be, or at least, it's everything that they promised it would be. I don't think I've gotten to hit many of the really cool features yet, but I'm watching Blade Runner on it right now. I should be doing homework though. Overall OS X 10.1is very good, and very fast.

"The tortoise lays on its back, its belly baking in the hot sun, beating its legs trying to turn itself over. But it can't. Not without your help. But you're not helping." - Blade Runner

Hey, the database works. Well, it started working a few hours ago. Right now I'm basically done with all the coding I have to do, and I'll just have to do a bit of cleanup work for Andrew later on. Brishen is coming into town tonight, for the night. He should be arriving at 8:40 and then leaving the next day around 2pm. It'll be cool to see him, and thankfully I don't have lots of crap to do today, so I actually CAN see him. I have lots of things I've been procrastinating doing, but I can procrastinate them even more until after he leaves. I'm installing MacOS X 10.1 on my iBook tonight. It's going dreadfully slowly, but it doesn't irritate me too much, I CAN'T WAIT. Andrew has a great habit of getting me Apple software on the day it's released. I found the cd it in my mailbox about 45 minutes ago.

Getting some really nice errors from things that aren't my responsiblity on the server-side of life. I emailed the guys at superB.net and hopefully they'll fix the "Error 2002" in the next few minutes. We're supposed to ship the DMA site on monday or tuesday, and I'm faithful that it's possible. There isn't a lot of work to do, I just need to get the darn server to dance with me. There's a football game tonight, it'll be my first football game in a while, I'm looking forward to it. Football games, even though I really don't like watching people viciously pound each other to move around a ball, have a great atmosphere. It's one of the most violent sports we play in America, but everyone enjoys watching it. You could think of it as sick, but not quite as sick as say... feeding christians to lions. I read somewhere that they did that in rome.

I went to take a test for It's Acedemic (it's like jeoparody, and I can't spell anything these days) yesterday. Some of the questions were pretty hard, and I know I got several of them wrong, but you aren't supposed to get them all right anyway, so I don't feel bad. We took the test at the building for the local PBS channel, inside of a giant studio with concrete floors and high ceilings. The PBS building was on 23 Sesame Street, zipcode 23235, and it's channel 23. Those nerds at PBS have too much spare time.

We are, as usual, right on the brink of getting this whole pile of work done, but we won't be getting there anytime soon. The last 5% of the features just LOVE to take just as long as everything else to get coded out. It pisses me off, but this is how it always happens. Oh, and there's a side project.... Whatever, at least I'm getting paid.

Got a haircut, actually I got it on saturday but I think I'm going through a period of not wanting to blog. It looks ok, doesn't look that much better but I also don't think it looks worse, so hey. Jeremy and I are probably going to be working on a new project soon, in the flavor of manila and blogger. I really hope to keep it complaint with both of them, too. The main feature is a way to stick pictures on the internet, but I think eventually it'll be much more than that.

Yawn. I ate 2520 calories of candy corn in the last two days. I didn't know it was that much when I ate it, but it is. I also ran 8K (5 miles) today. So I don't feel bad about it, that much.

An Afghan-American speaks: "You can't bomb us back into the Stone Age. We're already there. But you can start a new world war, and that's exactly what Osama bin Laden wants."

The meeting was crazy, basically we thought we needed a lot more than we really do. We were about to make things so complex that we were talking in awkward dimensions, and things were way out of porportion. The function we described was way too complex for any real use until they get into having thousands of items. Part of the great thing about our database right now is that it's so flexable that we can easily add that stuff in in the future, if it's needed. Anyways, the meeting went from around 7:30 to 11:30. It was crazy. We actually got a very signifigant amount of work done, but then threw it away. At least it'll put things in perspective for the future, and it's not like we were throwing something away after working on it for a long time. It would have taken about a week to get working really properly, and it wasn't going to be used all that much. Anyways, I'm regretting the two mountain dews I drank. I know now why I'm not drinking caffine, I was once addicted to it. I'm sort of like a junkie right now, and I think I just "shot up" for the first time in ages. Not a good feeling, I hope I don't need more caffine tommorow. If I do end up getting addicted, i'm gonna drink tea or something, not soda.

Going to a meeting with James and Andrew tonight at around 6. We're going to hopefully lock down the final features that the website needs, and then I can work on those this weekend. I was supposed to be running tommorow in a 5K at the same place but on a different course as last time. It's been cancelled because of the tragic events this week. There is also a football game tonight, which they are going ahead with, but I can't go because of the meeting. Not a huge deal at all though.

"In the next world war in a jack knifed juggernaut, I am born again. In the neon sign, scrolling up and down, I am born again. In an interstellar burst, I am back to save the universe. In a deep deep sleep, of the innocent, I am born again. In a fast German car, I'm amazed that I survived, an airbag saved my life. In an interstellar burst, I am back to save the universe. In an interstellar burst, I am back to save the universe. In an interstellar burst, I am back to save the universe." Radiohead - Airbag I think now is a time for renewal, rebuild, come back stronger. For those of us still here, the airbag has saved our life. Now we have to go save the universe. To paraphrase: we need to stand up and fight, but not with guns. However capitalistic this sounds, get up and buy something, let's bring our economy back.

I'm overwhelmed, I want to help dig people out. I wish I could. I know I can't, and I think sending notes and cards isn't nearly enough sympathy. I almost signed a card today, but it just seems so inadaquate. Anything I think of doing just seems like it won't be a big help.

Great Buildings: The World Trade Center.

Today Nicole Todd an I were walking outside during Field Biology. The science teachers were all over the place, Mr. Toti came into our Chemistry class just a second before the anouncement and said "Shaheem"(his first name, probably incorecctly spelled) to get Mr. Abrahams' attention. I thought nothing of it, science teachers talk to each other all the time. Anyways, Nicole, who's father retired from the Air Force several years ago, asked "Do you think we'll go to war". I thought about it, but had already thought about it a lot, and responded "We don't have anyone to fight". I think this is the worst thing, especially with our political-correctness. We can't rally and say "it was them" because we never know who "them" is, or even if "them" is "us". We can't fight, and right now we can't go to war. America has nowhere to vent, and I think we'll see that over the next few days. I was at Sno-To-Go today for the first time in ages, it's basically an Italian Ice shop. No one there could really handle what had happened, and I think we're all in denial. We all just had fun, and hopefully we'll be able to have fun again sometime in the near future . . .

Boston Globe'''This is a price you pay for a weak response to the Lockerbie bombing, a weak response to the first World Trade Center bombing, a weak response to the bombing of the USS Cole, a weak response to the Africa embassy bombings,'' he said. ''We've allowed Osama bin Laden to go on with life, to be protected by the Taliban in Afghanistan.'''

The unthinkable happened today. More on that here.

Done with all my homework for tonight, I'm gonna go upstairs and start working on my homework that's due tommorow. This begs the question: what in hell is wrong with me. Going to my first It's Acedemic thing tommorow, maybe we'lll get the buzzers out for good times. Porbably not though, i think we're deciding who goes to take the 'big test'. Also going to see a lecture in the Sigma Lecture Series tommorow on building jet engines with computers. It should be cool too.

Ah, I started awake, and now I'm going to sleep. This is how life works. I did all my homework, and mowed the lawn, and watched a little TV too. What a fun day.

I'm awake, which is rather unusual for me, at this hour especially. I was easily easily awake at this time yesterday, because I had woken up at 6am. Last night, I got to sleep at 1am, which would make me wake up around 12 any normal day, today I couldn't sleep past 9:30. I am now a tool of the system, and I should have no trouble waking up at a decent hour tommorow. Today on the schedule is homework, homework, homework and then maybe mowing the lawn. No running today, since I can barely walk :).

I am posting this from a program that I've written on my computer, in about three seconds, that posts things to my blogger account. It's so incredibly easy to write such a program, that it makes me want to do inredible things with the technology. Hmm..... Maybe once I get some sleep.

Damn, that's weird

Ok I added some links on the sidebar, in no particular order. Don't be ashamed if you aren't at the top, if you really care, you could just not even look at the side bar. I also got rid of all the things that make the text a specific size (really small, in particular) because my contacts aren't working so well these days. That means I can't see well, and I am more sympathethic to those people who can't see. If you want smaller text, go somewhere else :).

OH, I've found many exciting links. Like Trishia is blogging now, creepy, but cool. There's also Scooter Bug which is a bit weird, and being as sleep deprived as I am right now I don't really understand it.

Ashley and I have discovered the meaning of the universe. Basically, have you ever been saying "no, no no" and then on the radio some song repeats the same lyrics? Or perhaps "I almost got arrested" at the same time Thom Yorke says "Karma Police, arrest this man"? This is the meaning of the universe. Don't take it lightly, whenever you find that this is happening to you, be the first to mention it to your nearest authority. Right now that'd be me and Ashley. More will join as we discover more. There goes conventional religion, in comes... Lyricized Concindental Religion. Note to Ashley: I forget to spell many things properly. Don't take it personally, and even though I do have a spell checker, I find that using it is much less personal. After all, if every word was spelled correctly, there would be no more evolution of our beloved English langauge. And we don't need any of that, eh?

I went to Emily Ransone's birthday party last night, she got a hamster. A male hamster. A well endowed male hamster, the best way to describe it is that if I had balls that big, I'd be lugging around melons, not water melons, but things the size of nerf balls. Now the interesting idea has come into everyone's head that "maybe that hamster has tumors in his testes". I told my mother, she assumed he has tumors, I told layne, she thought he had tumors. I at one point thought this hamster had tumors. Due to the miracle of google, I have found that: "Mature male hamsters possess large, prominent testicles just beneath their tails. Often the testicles' size is alarming when first noticed or may be mistaken for tumors." If this falls safely into the category of way more than you need to know, it does for me too, don't feel bad. Or sick.

I went to see The Musketeer tonight with Harrison. The movie sucked, but it was cool to hang out with Harrison after not seeing him, or many people in that group of friends, in ages. The movie had shitty dialogue which is always great when you want to make fun of it. There were plenty of places to insert lewed made-up lines. I also ran a 5K today, and took my time from a pitiful 34:37 to a respectable 28:10. I still need to bring it down, but progress comes slowly. I want to buy some nylon shirts, they're a lot more comfortable to run in than the cotton ones I wear now. I also might need to get some new shoes, 'cause the ones I have now suck. Or I could just wait for my left leg to heal and run more... I want to run/vomit/sleep right now, it's a horrible feeling. I think I'll do neither.

I lifted/stole my sister's old radio/tape/cd from the closet. It's much better than my current one, and it doesn't make a "poooooong" noise as it spins the cd. It almost sounds like an alien attacking my house. Anyways, school is over for the week, which means the exciting things will go in THIS blog, not the other one. We went on a field trip today in field biology. How interesting is that? not very... but it was a cool trip. Nicole Todd and I had fun making fun of the idiots in our class. I hope they don't read this, I suppose that's why I'm not posting it on LHS blog. Oh, and I didn't say you were all idiots... honest.

I'll start adding more meaningful stuff once I crawl out from this mess of homework. I think I might have to quit CC just to free up time. Ugh.

OH, and the first day of school went well, but you'll see more and more stuff about that at the new LHS Blog. Checkitout.

Wow, I just read and annotated my first chapter for honors. Mrs. Fairbairn wants us to do this fairly often I take it, she said at least one chapter a week, and I think it'll get closer to two. I still have to: do a vocab list and read and annotate a letter from the Virginia Company to the original settlers, looking for bias. Oh, and my calculus homework was a cinch by comparison,thanks.

Here we go!!!!!!!!!! (cough)

I hadn't been eating a lot, because I hadn't been running a lot, so i wasn't hungry. I ate a lot last night, and I ran like crazy today. It felt great. My ankle hurts though so I should be getting some sleep. Kepa is coming over in a while to scan an image. I hope she gets here soon. I wanna sleep.

http://lhs.blogspot.com is a collective weblog of the entire Lafayette High School expirience, year 2001-2002. It should get interesting, very interesting.

I got my school supplies, finished my Calculus work, and I'm proofing my papers for honors. Here's to being finished early (albeit only by a few hours). Did you know that if you type profanity into a spellchecker, it won't find it wrong, but if you type profanity incorrectly, it won't correct it for you. Example: I typed "fuck" into appleworks, and it ignores it as if it's spelled correctly. Then I typed "fucck" in, and it offered me fuss, fussy, and Fuqua as solutions. Interesting. It also won't correct he A-word or the S-word.

My contacts were sort of not focusing, so went to adjust one, and it fell out. Not bad, I though, so I went to the bathroom and couldn't find my normal solution to wash it off with. There was another bottle there though, and it didn't have a broken seal, so I figured it must have been put there for me. I broke the seal, washed off my lense, and stuck it in my eye.

YOW!!!

Egads it hurt. I used the lense cleaner with red cap. Damn, I won't do that again.

I've put in new contacts, and the one in my left eye doesn't appear to be working properly, I'm hoping that by sitting here long enough something good will happen and it'll actually start to work. If I only look at things through my left eye, I can focus. I think I'm just tired right now, very tired.

Good Morning. goooood Mornnin! Morning! good morning! goood morning! Good Morning.

I just chased them off with a broom, well actually a mop.

My neighbor's dogs are outside barking really loudly. It's almost 1am. It's taking a LOT of resistance to not go beat the shit out of them.

In less that 24 hours I will be trying to sleep, feeling nauseated, worried that my honors papers suck, desperately trying to remember my calc forumulas. Life sucks.

Some people have been asking me what my favorite song is. Before today (because something happened today, which I don't feel like mentioning) it has been, and will probably remain to be, Hidden Place, by Bjork. Hidden Place: through the warmthest cord of care your love was sent to me i'm not sure what to do with it or where to put it i'm so close to tearS and so close to simply calling you up and simply suggesting we go to that hidden place .   now, i have been slightly shy but i can smell a pinch of hope to almost have allowed once fingers to stroke the fingers i was given to touch with but careful careful there lies my passion hidden there lies my love i'll hide it under a blanket lull it to sleep i'll keep it in a hidden place . he's the beautifullest fragilest still strong dark and divine and the littleness of his movements hides himself he invents a charm that makes him invisible hides in the hair can i hide there too? hide in the hair of him seek solace s a n c t u a r y in that hidden place.

I just ate some mexican pizza, it's honestly the only food of substance (that is, not fruit or vegtable) I can remember eating in the last 48 hours, besides lunch on Friday at ruby tuesdays. Wow. Of course I also have a habit of forgetting what I've eaten.

Jeremy Justice is blogging.

MMMoney in my pockett that I totalllly forgot about, not baaaad. I just finished the writing part of the honors english paper, still needs a conclusionary paragraphy though. I'm gonna finish my reading for the History paper, and then come back and edit the honors paper. Hopefully that'll help me forget a bit about the one paper so I can be more critical when I edit it. Oh, and you'd be surprised how much a font can make your paper larger or smaller. Geneva gives me 4 and 1/2 pages, Helective gives me four, Times gives me 3 pages. Weird.

I'm still pounding (hammering) my way through my summer papers for Honors (english/history). I'm also reading a bit of OpenGL on the side.

"open gl is like taking acid, everything makes sense until you come down off the high, then you're just as confused as when you started" - Andrew Edem

Keep in mind I've never tried acid, and I don't plan on it, but I will try OpenGL, and at least that won't ruin my brain :).

Our old principal, Mr Asip, was walking around CW today, he passed us like 5 times. It was creepy. I started on my honors english paper today, and my history one will be started on (and hopefully finished) tommorow. Maybe I can edit them a bit on monday night, save, print, and then get to sleep nice and early. But argh... the calculus. The calculus!

We saw JR, the "Bye, bye Mrs. American Pie" guy working at Ruby Tuesdays today. Then we saw two guys who sang "all the small things" at the bowling alley when we accidentally sat on their side of the lane. Sorry guys. We're getting so close to shipping this product I can taste it in the back of my mouth! We have a few little things to polish off, but it's polishing, no bugs. The cool thing is that for the most part our database creates it's own links, so that you don't tend to get incorrect links. The only real remaining 'polishes' have to do with sub-groups and making it so if you type in the wrong address, the database won't freak out. Thankfully some of the bugs fall into the "will probably never happen" section, and that makes me not have to pull hair over them. I'm gonna be working all tommorow and I will fix those bugs, and do my darn honors reading. The last tiny bit of it, annotating packets. According to Ashley and Christina I am annotating correctly, which is good. Then I can write the papers, and then I can do the FYSCAL stuff for Calculus. Wowza, lots of work, lots of playing too.

We didn't end up going to the beach, and the 'band party' was basically a bunch of upperclassman inside, and then the freshman and sofmores outside setting off smoke bombs and eating pizza. Doing cool things. We watched ET. I didn't realize how obvious the product placement in it was. "ET, would you like a coke", and then the path home of reeses pieces. A good movie though because it makes more sense when you're older than it does when you're about five. I used get freaked out when ET screamed, and he has a really weird mechanical sounding scream, sort of "aaahr-ararhar-eeerck-eeeek-aaahr-aarhr". Oh, and channel surfing late at night can be very dangerous. Stick to the channels you're used to. If someone tries to tell you that you'll be cool if you change to HBO, just say 'No!'. I'm going to the open house today at Lafayette, to meet my teachers and stuff, mainly to get my schedule so I know what teachers I have and where. I was thinking of changing it so I have Drivers Ed during the school year, but my mom said I don't have a chance of getting into the class, and it'd be lame. I think I'll just take it with Patriot or something, during my eons of free time in the afternoon, right...

Ashley and I went to Waller Mill park today and paddle-boated around in a yellow paddleboat wearing some yellow life perservers. It was really cool, and the geese hissed at people to chase them off. The canadian-geese and the white geese seem to live separate lives, then there was a mallard who was totally out of place. Then we went to Colonial Williamsburg, looked around for our friends but everyone wasn't working today (of course they're all working labor-day, go figure). Then we visited Christina at her house, after lunch (If you noticed I'm sparse on the details it's because it's really none of your buisness :)). Cross Country was crazy today, there was a mile-long warmup, then a 2-mile second warmup, then a mile and a half of sprinting and walking, then a 1/2 mile (or so) around the school. That which does not kill me only makes me faster. My mom and stepdad bought me 3-64oz gatorades, "Nature Valley" carbohydrate bars, and peanuts. I think this is part of her mission to get me eating right again, which I can't complain with. I had a talk with Coach Johnson about what to eat, and she basically reaffirmed what I had thought, which is splurge on protein and carbs during the night, and eat bland food on the day so it won't mess up your stomach during running. Tonight I'm going to the 'band party', and then probably to jamestown beach with a bunch of people.

Karaoke was pretty cool. There were a bunch of people there who looked like rednecks but sang really really well, even though it was country and I'm not that big a fan of country. This one guy was wearing a red "Gehngis Kahn - World Tour" shirt, and he sang "Bye Bye Mrs. American Pie" really well, it was sort of surprising because he looked like a hippie but sung like a strait cowboy. I have more respect for RedNecks, and their singing skills, than I ever did before.

I bought vespertine today, awesome cd. Bjork rules again(did she ever not rule?). The coolest thing is that some of the songs that I downloaded a while ago have been changed around for the CD, and they're better. Sort of like what RadioHead did with Amnesiac, and how all the songs happened to be on the net months before it was released. Both cds I've bought, and both I cherish. RIAA gains a point. A well, deserved point. The only annoying thing is that it says on the back of the cd "Elektra Entertainment Group Inc. Warner Music Group, an AOL Time Warner Company." Welcome to the suck of AOL-Time Warner mega-corp.

Karaoke tonight. Layne and I are gonna watch the movies some other time. Karaoke more important!

I'm about finished with my summer reading. I have three packets left to go over for history, and I'm in the process of outlining and disecting My Antonia, Moby Dick, and The Grapes of Wrath. I read all of My Antonia, and the beginnings of the second two. I had already read some of The Grapes of Wrath back in 10th grade for english, and I really enjoyed it. My only complaint is that I wasn't able to finish it. I think I'm going to end up going with Steinbeck for two reasons 1) I hate to not finish a good book 2) everyone tells me I'm not an american if I haven't read all of his writing. So it makes good sense to read what they tell me to. I need to do some graphs and memorize some functions for Calculus, maybe I'll start working on that tonight. What I have heard is that it's best to get one thing done before you begin working on another.

I just ran a 5K. (5K = 3.1 miles) in cross country. My time went up from 30:00 on flat-land to 34:37, so I'm not entirely happy with myself, but I did mow the lawn today, so that's my excuse. Still it's more running than you did today I'd bet? The team is very neat, I was afraid that if you're slow people would be rude or something, but not at all. A new Bjork CD came out today, but I haven't bought it yet... I feel so... normal. I have the music from it (Mp3) and I'm going to buy a copy soon, just not today. Mainly because I didn't wanna walk into Echo's smelling discusting, but also because I didn't want to blow a lot of money right after making it mowing the lawn. I await pay-day for Design Master's new website. I'm not entirely done though. I think my economic habits are similar to a sailor's. I make ends meet between payments, and my payments are spread out over periods of around 3-6 months at most times. Thank god I don't have a family to support, thank god I don't even support myself. I should actually start saving more money.

"Texas Moments includes photographs and texts describing the last meals and statements of the 40 people that Texas executed in the year 2000. As a screen saver, Texas Moments personalizes the statistics of capital punishment."

I was going to go jogging with Layne. We were going to meet up at around 10:45 and take a lap or two around the forest. Maybe I swore too much today, or maybe there was just too much heat in the air. But it started raining hard. Cats, Dogs, and according to Ashley it was even raining Shearkks. Layne and I called off the run and he gave me a ride home. Forsan et haec olim meminisse iuvabit."Recall your courage and dismiss your sad fear; perhaps someday it will give pleasure to remember even these things. Through various disasters, through so many crises of affairs, we are bound for Latium."

I lost my copy of OK Computer [RadioHead]. I downloaded a new copy today, someday I'll buy a CD burner and burn myself a copy of it. Or I'll just clean my room and figure out where it's gone to. I am nonetheless very happy to have the music back, and the coolthing about radiohead, is that I seriously doubt they'd care if I had just downloaded the music without actually owning a copy in the first place.

I think I've killed my Palm Pilot. I walked over to it today, and it won't turn on. I did the full song-and dance to try and fix it, and it still just crashes and crashes. I've sent Palm an email with the full details, and I'm seriously expecting a "oh well, buy a new one" response. If I get one of those I'm buying a libretto, or a picturebook and running evolution on it. Then I'll dump all my Palm and Beos stock, and give them a single-finger salute. I'm a bit pissed, I hope it can be fixed.

Ashley, Layne, and I just go back from Busch Gardens. It was a cool day because it focused more on seeing shows than rollercoasters. Ashley has a back brace, and so she can't ride roller coasters, but the rides we did go on we got to cut the line. We saw the new River Dance wannabe show in Ireland, and then there was a guy speaking in an Irish accent in the Magic store. I learned that Busch actually flies people over from foriegn countries (the people working a snack booth were poles). It's pretty neat, and I had no idea they did such a thing. Oh, and Layne sorta-kinda rear-ended a lady on the way home. He didn't hit her hard though, and no one was hurt, and her car wasn't hurt, so all is good I hope. Layne has a blog now, and I want to find out where it is, once blogger.com gets all their search tools working it shouldn't be hard to find. He's told me he isn't giving away the link to it (harumph). I'm about 10 pages into Moby Dick. I also have an Anne Tyler book in the que for once I finish this one. I hope I can get them done quickly, i don't actually have to read the entire book, just the first 50 or so pages. Wednesday night Layne is coming over and we're gonna watch The Right Stuff and A Clockwork Orange. I haven't seen either. Oh, and we'll be playing.... here it comes... here it goes... here it is... Dance Dance Revolution!!!

Shit! I just found out that Thomas Wolfe and Tom Wolfe, who wrote TEKAT are not the same person. That means that I just wasted 30 pages of good reading. I need to either hit the library or our bookshelves tommorow and find more stuff to read.

I've always been hearing about Forte for Java, and never really knowing what it was. Well today I had to search for a Java IDE, and I found Forte. It's pretty sweet, a bit funny, but I'm assuming that's because I have no idea how to use it. I might end up using it in some of my future work.

Chapter 4: What do you think of my budda? That's how far I am in The Electric Kool-aid Acid Test. I don't know if I'll end up finishing the entire thing, it is definatly a book that I should eventually finish however. I wish there wasn't a restriciton that limits me to reading 300 pages from 3 separate books. I've already read about 300 pages in two books, and I have... 416 - 33 = 383 pages left in TEKAT. I think I'll read some short stories by someone or another, and I also have my three history packets to read and analyze, and my formulas to memorize for calculus. I think I had goals of things I wanted to accomplish before the end of the summer. I think one of them was programming COCOA, I don't think I've gotten there yet. I don't think I've done any of my goals for the summer. I did keep running however, I met my running goal, and I might have some exciting employment in the works, so it didn't all go to hell. I'm also learning java and this job might ingrain more Java into me. I'm starting to think I would rather do Tom Wolfe than Willa Cather for my independent author. On the other hand if I read my Wolfe now, I will never end up reading the Cather. Ever, I really would have no interest or time to read it if it wasn't an assignment. I know it's good stuff to read, but I think TEKAT is more important to me right now than Cather. I had a dream last night I was putting in some wired contacts, and they were long rectangular pieces of plastic, like the things they stick on dollar-store sunglasses that tell you they block "100% UV Rays". You had to stick one end of it on your eye, and then wait for it to wrap around your eyeball, then shift your eye to the side and feel the rest of it glide into place. I don't know where I get such inspiration for akward dreams like that. Busch Gardens tommorow, it should be fun. I think it'll require a little cross-country skippage on my part however, but I did my 5K last night around my neighborhood, and today is a day off, so if I run tommorow night I won't be far behind. We have a scrimmage against massoponax Tuesday at 5:30 on the Eastern State course. It should be neat, I'll probably get my ass kicked.

I rode my bike up to the pool and hung (hanged?) out with Ashley and Kepa for a while. Then they told me to call Layne and invite him, because they're afraid to call his house... so I called, got a busy signal, called again, and got him. Then he came down and we hung out some more. There are interesting things that people talk about that you just can't write down. And "Hanging out" is a weird way to describe it, I suppose it's the same thing that parents do except they have something concrete behind it. "Watching football" or "knitting" is really just social hour, and it sounds more productive than "hanging out". I need to go running. I skipped cross country this morning and feel somewhat bad about it, but lots of people skip it everyday. I was very very tired and wouldn't have done well at running anyway, and when I mentioned not going to my mom she didn't put up a lot of real resistance, so oh well... Monday Layne, Ashley and I (maybe others) are going to Busch Gardens. I bought a Summer Sizzler pass and then I only used it once, so I can get some use out of it now, which will be good. Ashley can't ride that many rides though and I don't want to leave her sitting out of stuff so I think we're going to see all the cool shows, the ones that we never end up seeing when we're there. The ones where they spit stryofoam and water at you and you wear 3D goggles.

I'm now two books plus 292 pages into my summer reading. I have finished My Antonia by Willa Cather, Black Boy by Richard Wright, and I am working my way through Growing Up By Russell Baker. They are all very good books. I'm hoping to finish Growing Up tonight, and start on The Electric Kool-Aid Acid Test tommorow, or later tonight. I'm also just finished some great bug-fixing and feature-adding on the Catalogue codebase. We should be "shipping" in like a few days. Andrew has some extra work for me to do to spiff up the admin interface so it looks nice. Then once they add in all the items, and there are hopefully not catastrophic bugs that cause the whole thing to come crashing down, I get paid. Then I can move onto my new TopSecret project.

It seems like I have everything working now, which is a good thing. I can resume my blogging habits. Maybe I'll write a Manila->Blogger gateway, now that there is already a Blogger->Manila gateway. I want to be able to post from Radio straight into blogger, and send up all my old blogs that were on kingprimate.com, but now aren't. Cox decided to block all traffic to port 80, probably because they're worried about CodeRed, which is a good claim. But damn, I wasn't even running IIs, so maybe they could have cut me some slack.

Let's see if it works